lights in dark places
Cull is the latest novel by Tanvir Bush
Alex has a problem. Categorized as one of the disabled, dole-scrounging underclass, she is finding it hard to make ends meet.
Now, in her part time placement at the local newspaper, she’s stumbled onto a troubling link between the disappearance of several homeless people, the new government Care and Protect Bill and the sinister extension of the Grassybanks residential home for the disabled, elderly and vulnerable.
Can she afford the potential risk to herself and her wonderful guide dog Chris of further investigation?
‘Laugh and weep! With wit, flair and imagination, Tanvir Bush unfolds the secret life of a nation on benefits. Our nation….’ Fay Weldon
By Tanvir Bush
Job Central: in which Alex asks for help and is punished.
From the crossing point at the bottom of the bridge you can gaze left along the glittering punt-strewn river towards the colleges, ancient and modern, or turn to your right to Peter’s Green with its tennis courts, green playing fields and towering horse chestnut trees. Unless circumstances say otherwise, there is no need to look over the bridge to where Job Central is conveniently shielded by a high bank topped with fences and thick bushes. This is a good thing, as Job Central is one of the ugliest buildings in the city.
It’s an imposing five-storey rectangular building with small windows. There is a sullen greyness to its exterior, and the elaborate frontage, a series of ramps and sharp concrete steps, is confusing and, for the less mobile, potentially dangerous. As Chris guides Alex carefully into the building her sight dims; her addled rod and cone cells, unable to process light properly, cannot cope with a sudden change from sun to shade. Back come the teasing shifting shadows through which she can just make out another cat’s cradle of ropes criss-crossing the lobby and a couple of small signs she can’t read. Chris can’t read either, and although there are several people in the various queues watching Alex, no one says a word. She can make out people’s outlines but not faces, and scans around until she happens upon what she presumes, by the cracking radio and stance, is a bored security guard.
‘Which queue, mate?’ she asks.
She waits for a response. After a couple of moments she realises he is pointing.
‘Err…’ she also points, at Chris in his guide dog harness. ‘I’m visually impaired. Pointing is not going to work. You need to use your voice or actually guide me.’
‘Yeah?’ His voice is slow and suspicious. ‘Well, you don’t look visually impaired… and you saw me.’
‘And you don’t look learning-impaired,’ says Alex. ‘But how would we know?’
‘No need to take that attitude,’ he grunts sullenly, yanking her elbow and pulling. She refrains from saying that he also reeks of something ghastly that he probably believes passes as aftershave. Only a man with a job already would be wearing aftershave in here. He hovers while Alex’s handbag is screened for weapons and then shunts her along into the main hall.
‘Thanks,’ she says, breathing shallowly. ‘The dog will take it from here.’
As this is an age of reason and enlightenment, Job Central’s main hall has been redesigned to encourage and excite the jobless. A large blue and orange banner proclaims ‘Technical Outcomes for Social Advancement (TOSA) welcomes you to your new career!’ Gone are the wipe-down linoleum floors, the booths with the stab-proof glass and the prison visiting room decor. Now the hall is rampant with fuzzy orange, the carpets, the lighting and even the Vivaldi being softly excreted from invisible speakers give off a buzzy greeny-yellow kind of effervescence. Alex heard a rumour the colour has been tested on monkeys, but isn’t sure of why or what the outcome was. There is a slight acrid smell too. It reminds her of the powdery mould on lemons left too long in the fruit bowl.
The hall is circled by semi-partitioned booths, all quite open-plan, so you can listen to your neighbour being told that his child benefit is being axed, or that their CV won’t get them into marketing unless they would consider an actual stall in an actual market. And even then they would probably need a maths qualification.
The thick carpet absorbs sound as small groups of people cluster around the electronic exhibition boards advertising jobs and courses. On every desk and table, and in racks hanging from every space along the walls are endless leaflets all showing happy, helpful, smiling Job Central staff and radiant, relieved, excited job applicants.
Chris guides Alex to their usual seat. On the seat to her left a young woman is sobbing quietly into her hands. Ignoring her, another woman chews gum, snapping it loudly and waggling a deadly-heeled shoe from one foot. A pram is parked between them with a quietly mewling baby. Several men in long green parkas trail the smell of onions and old beer as they circle the seats, as if playing musical chairs.
Alex is early for her appointment and could sit over in the cordoned off ‘crip’ area if she wanted. It has better lighting, blue seats and more space. Annoyingly, however, the ‘blue corner’ is currently the haunt of Joanna Honey.
Joanna is there now. Alex glances over, peering down her keyhole of clear sight and can make out her skinny, sway-backed shadow flitting from empty seat to empty seat. Any closer and they would be able to hear her muttering to herself, crying, asking for her mother.
Actually it was Joanna’s poor old mum who stuck her there in the first place. She does so every morning, on the dot of 8am. If the situation wasn’t so fucking tragic it would be a laugh line on social media sites. ‘Look how Mrs Honey Senior solved her social care problem! #systempranklol’ or something similarly perky.
But in reality it is just more dark shit. Joanna Honey is in her late forties and has severe mental health issues, epilepsy and a tendency to scream and then vomit when she gets anxious. Under the new welfare reforms she has been assessed as ‘fit for work’ and her disability benefit axed. As a consequence of Joanna’s new status, her mother’s Carer’s Allowance has been withdrawn, which means her mother, after 47 years of caring full time for Joanna, has had to find paid work, which she has done, part time for a local cleaning company. Only there is no money for a carer for Joanna and anyway, Joanna is supposed to be ‘actively seeking employment’. It doesn’t seem to matter to anyone that Joanna has the mental age of a seven-year-old and is terrified of being out of her bedroom. No one cares.
So what does the feisty Mrs Honey do? She makes the very sensible decision to drop Joanna off at Job Central every day, and let them look after her.
Alex knows all this because she had been sitting in that very blue ‘crip’ area waiting for an interview when Mrs Honey had first brought Joanna in.
‘You can’t leave her here!’ The staff had jumped up and down, wringing their hands, calling for backup.
‘You said she should be actively looking for work.’ Mrs Honey Senior had waved the brown envelope like a freakin’ lottery ticket, her eyes flashing. ‘So here she is “actively looking for work”. She is your responsibility now.’ At this point Joanna had begun screaming.
‘I have to go,’ said Mrs Honey over the din, handing a bag of adult nappies and wet wipes to the trembling Job Central Liaison Manager. ‘I’ll be back at lunchtime.’ And she had scarpered just before Joanna had begun throwing up – and, oh hell, can Joanna project her vomit! It was the most elegant revenge Alex had ever seen.
Only it isn’t funny anymore. Every morning Joanna’s mother drops her off on her way to work. Distraught Joanna is left alone, rocking back and forth on a plastic chair, clutching a little bag with her plastic bottle of apple juice and a couple of flapjacks. After a few minutes Joanna stops keening, and the staff relax and move back to their desks. Only Joanna is stick-thin now and in a constant state of terror and misery.
Her mother isn’t faring any better. When Alex first saw her waving that envelope she was magnificent, a tower of passion and righteous fury. Now she is an exhausted shuffler. A head bowed, back bowed, shuffler. After five hours on her hands and knees cleaning toilets in the university colleges, Mrs Honey Senior picks up her gibbering daughter, who now needs double the care and reassurance, and there is still not enough money to feed them both properly.
Alex had written an article about it, but her editor had axed it at the last minute to go with a story about a local paedophile getting beaten up.
Today Alex has a new Motivation and Empowerment Officer (MEO). She is small and plump with a pink face and looks rather sweet, although clearly anxious. She reminds Alex of a white mouse released into its first laboratory maze.
‘Good Morning. My name’s Lucy,’ she says and leans over the desk to proffer a hand. ‘How are–’ Before she completes that sentence she freezes. Already, in her first twenty seconds she realises she has committed two grave mistakes. One, she has offered to shake Alex’s hand. Two, and worse even than that, she has almost asked the client how they are. No, no, no! This is entirely outside of TOSA protocol when dealing with crips. NEVER make physical contact, and NEVER ask them how they are! Apparently this implies interest in the health of the crip client, which could lead to what they call ‘negative empathic stereotyping’. Crips by definition have health problems. TOSA does not believe in allowing anyone to dwell on this aspect of the client. Including the client. Positivity is key for the work-shy.
Lucy is still frozen.
‘Hi, Lucy. Nice to meet you.’ Alex, amused, pretends she hasn’t noticed Lucy’s extended hand and sits. Lucy glances over her shoulder in case her faux pas has been noticed by her supervisor. It hasn’t. She is lucky. She plonks back into her seat and picks up Alex’s file.
‘Alexandra? Alex? Yes, well, what can I do for you today? According to our records you have a placement already. It says here you saw my colleague Ismail three months ago?’
Ismail, the previous incumbent, had been a delightful and ineffective man who laughed an awful lot and shook his head in a weary ‘haven’t we seen it all now’ kind of way. He had organised Alex her current part time placement at the local newspaper. For this, TOSA had received a large wad of cash from the government. If Alex stays in the job for over six months they will get another large pay-out.
‘Is there a problem?’ Lucy is rummaging through Alex’s file.
‘The thing is, Lucy, it is a part-time placement.’ Alex leans in talking low, as if Lucy is a good friend at a bar. ‘I am, therefore, still not actually in paid employment. Having previously had actual paid work, I feel I could do a great deal better.’
‘Is there a problem?’
Lucy’s supervisor has crept up behind her like Nosferatu, only with a clipboard. He doesn’t introduce himself but leans over Lucy and picks up Alex’s file.
‘I am sorry,’ Alex says, although she isn’t. She is irritated. ‘You are reading my file, so you obviously know who I am, but you? You are…?’
He is wearing gold-rimmed spectacles purely so he can glare at people over the top of them. He does so now at Alex.
‘My name is Mr Timms, and I am Lucy’s supervisor. I see your file is marked with a silver star. That is excellent. We have already been able to place you in work.’
Alex sighs. ‘Mr Timms. Lucy. I am in “a placement”, i.e. a temporary part time experience. I did this kind of thing in my sixth form at school. As people who actually work in an employment office, you must be aware that a placement is not a job. It does not actually pay.’
Mr Timms is looking at Alex’s CV. She has a lot of qualifications, and this seems to annoy him.
‘It says here you had a job with BBC Voyager, embedded with the troops in spite of your err…?’ He waves vaguely at Alex’s face. His tone is suspicious.
She doesn’t respond.
‘And Channel Fourteen Films… goodness, all very glamorous.’
‘Not really,’ she mumbles, although it had been.
‘And now a much sought after placement with the Cambright Sun.’
‘Yes, all this I know already,’ she says. His eyes flicker up over his glasses again. It’s like being poked with a stick.
‘Are we going to be having trouble with you, Alex?’
‘It’s Ms Lyon actually, Mr Timms. I am Alex to my friends. And one of the main problems with the placement is that, because it is part time, the Cambright Sun is not in any way obligated to help me with assistive technology. I am unable to use the office computers, and so am having to work additional hours, using printers and magnification, from home. So not only is it NOT an actual paid job, but I have to spend additional personal money which I do not have to stay in the placement. It doesn’t make any sense.’ Alex’s voice is getting a little squeaky. It’s not a good sign. Chris rests his muzzle supportively on her knee.
‘Have you applied for the Work Learner’s Access?’
‘That only applies for people under 25,’ she says glaring, as you well know.
‘The TOSA Empowerment Fund?’
‘That is £25 a month. And if I am on that I will no longer be eligible for my single room supplemental tax.’
‘Yes, but every little helps. I don’t think rejecting help in your situation is sensible, is it?’
Alex’s heart skitters slightly. She knows from bitter experience that rejecting anything TOSA may offer, no matter how ridiculous, will end up in sanctions against other entitlements. She may now have to fill in several more intrusive and upsetting forms and probably go through yet another so called ‘medical’ in order to receive £25 a month, which she can’t afford to have because she will then lose her £30 single room supplement. She rubs Chris’s ears, which are soft and silky. She concentrates on them for a moment.
Mr Timms leans closer over Lucy. Alex doesn’t like the way his hand is on her shoulder. A wee bit too close to the top of her breast, she thinks. She can smell his stale tea breath.
‘As you are so well connected in the industry, then perhaps you feel you would like to leave our programme and utilise your own contacts?’ His eyes up close are pale blue with a pinky hint of conjunctivitis. He has her file. He knows she cannot go back to her previous workplace. No TV crew is going to take on a blind journalist. He takes pleasure in watching her squirm.
Interesting how some people get off on their little bit of power, thinks Alex. They may never have met you, know nothing about you, but they will always resort to the Chinese burn, to the pinch, the scratch, the kick in the goolies. I am meeting so many of them these days.
‘I would advise you to stay in your current position, and we will send out the forms for the TOSA Empowerment Fund. I will also then need you to sign a consent form for our medical team to call on you, as and when they have a free booking in their schedule.’
Alex is trapped. She tries once more, ignoring Mr Timms and imploring little Lucy.
‘Lucy, could you just check if there are any jobs going in PR or Communications… perhaps even some teaching I can–’
Timms cuts in. ‘Ismail went over that with you. You do not have teaching qualifications and with your…’ here he pauses, ‘“condition” and the current benefits you are on, I am afraid it would not be in your interests to take on any more hours. You would lose your Housing Entitlement.’
‘I know,’ Alex says, thinking about wrenching his pen from his hand and ramming it through his pink-rimmed eyes and deep into his brain. She can almost hear the crunching squelch. Then again, she realises she can also get to his brain by getting up his nose.
She breathes out and leans back.
‘Whatever you think.’ Alex smiles widely, expansively, like they are all great friends. ‘Mr Timms, I am sure Lucy will learn so much from you. You really know the system, and I just know you will do what is best for me. Thank you so much.’
It is he who flinches now, pretending he hasn’t heard Lucy’s nervous snort of laughter. He removes his hand from her warm, round and now quivering shoulder. ‘Well then. Right. I need you to sign this form.’ He plucks some paper from his clipboard.
Alex looks at it. The font is tiny and the page, to her, is a shuddery blur.
‘Do you have it in large print?’ She is still smiling as if she is in love.
Timms sighs as if Alex has asked him to loan her a month’s rent.
‘I will have to order a special provision form and pull a large print permit. In the meantime Lucy will read it to you.’
‘I would prefer to–’
Lucy is prodded. ‘By signing this form, the client agrees to the terms and conditions,’ she begins to drone, and Alex switches off, already knowing it by rote. I am not going to sign it anyway, she thinks. It would mean she had signed to having had: 1. A pleasant experience; 2. Being treated with respect and competence; and 3. Having had her current questions on work and benefits answered to her satisfaction.
Mr Timms slides away and Lucy mumbles on, after all the time slot allocation is ten minutes and she still has three to fill.
‘So if you could just sign here.’ Lucy is holding out a pen and pointing a finger at the form.
‘Oh Lucy, thanks.’ Alex gets up and pulls the form from under her hand. ‘As I said, I never sign anything that I haven’t read through myself, as you can of course understand, but I will pop it in the post later today.’
‘I don’t think we do “post” anymore.’ Lucy has become pinker. ‘Everything has to go through the central computer system. Although it has crashed today…’
‘Well then I will scan it and email it.’
‘But the form won’t have been officially approved. You will be sanctioned–’
As the form has already disappeared into Alex’s handbag and she is already standing and moving backwards, Lucy has little choice.
‘Thank you for your assistance.’
Startled, but without the steadying hand of her supervisor, Lucy can only shake her head with worry and reiterate that if Alex doesn’t send the form in, she won’t be able to activate the TOSA Empowerment Fund and could potentially be penalised.
Alex nods, although in her head she is packing a bag and heading to a far distant country to raise chickens. Fuck TOSA.
Maggie Gee has written of this novel: ‘Where is the satirist we need now, with the welfare state in chaos and politics a TV reality show? She is the fabulous, funny, sharp, outrageous Tanvir Bush, and Britain must read her. With a dauntless but sympathetic heroine, one of the best dog characters in literature and a disabled escort service called the Ladies’ Defective Agency, this witty and all too believable novel is a 2017 inheritor of the satirical genius of Lindsay Anderson’s Britannia Hospital and Anthony Burgess’s Clockwork Orange.’
Cull Launch: 22 February 2019, 7-9pm
Tanvir Bush, in association with Unbound and The Corsham Bookshop, hosted a full house at the launch of her new novel Cull
at Town Hall, High St, Corsham
You can also buy Cull at
Corsham bookshop — firstname.lastname@example.org — 01249 715988
Graeae: Jenny Sealey
Format: Review copy
“This is 2019 version of 1984 and we know Orwell’s words became our reality. Tanvir’s Cull is also on the cusp of becoming true.
Believe in Better is a new movement in Cull but not better as we know it. Quite the opposite. Tanvir paints a devastating picture of what will happen as the far right make life impossible for disabled people.
A must-read to restoke the fire of protest as this satire is in real danger of being a reality.”
“A gripping story in a disturbing world that, at times, looks worryingly familiar.”Andy Hamilton
DaDa Fest: Ruth Gould
Format: Review copy
“Bush is a master storyteller – a captivating and engaging read that introduces you to very believable characters –some not in human form – that tells of a potential future disability dystopia, starkly. As a disabled person it sent shudders down my spine as the resonances are all too familiar, as it doesn’t just hold up a mirror to society in the UK today, but a colossal magnifying glass. My prayer is that it will make more people, especially those in power, sit up and take note.”
Witch Girl, Tanvir Bush’s first novel, is set in modern Lusaka, Zambia, where the line between magic and religion is blurred, the arcane and the mundane muddle and nothing is what it seems. Luse is a sharp street child combing the gang-ridden city in a desperate search for Doctor Georgia Shapiro who she hopes can offer her a way back into her once-bright past. The doctor is trying to unravel the mystery of a friend’s sudden death while attending to the AIDS crisis laying waste to the country around her. Meanwhile The Blood Of Christ Church and its enigmatic leader Priestess Selena Clark gain popularity with their murky promises of salvation and violent clandestine rituals. A small silver box links them in ways they cannot foretell. It will force Luse and Georgia to question who they trust, who they are and for whom they fight. Tanvi Bush’s Witch girl is a crime thriller that juggles the past and the present effortlessly, blending AIDS activism, witchcraft, religious extremism and romance to create a well-paced narrative. Luse is so feisty, charming and resourceful that you’ll miss her after you finish the book.
By Tanvir Bush
Section One: The Silver Box
It is a monstrous bruise of a sky. Thunder pounds the horizon, sending vibrations through the slumbering city. Luse twitches in her sleep but doesn’t wake fully. She is semi-standing, lodged uncomfortably against the huge concrete curve of a storm drain, her feet planted firmly on the sandy earth, head lolling uncomfortably. The concrete has been storing the blazing heat from the sun all day and is now gently releasing it into her lower back and buttocks and so, in spite of everything, including the fact that she is supposed to be on watch, Luse has fallen asleep. Another low rumble of thunder is followed by a burst of wind which ruffles the electricity pylons overhead and causes a sudden eddy of dust that knocks down the large pile of assorted rubbish Luse has been collecting for the fire. It slides apart, plastic bottles rolling in all directions, but she doesn’t wake. In her sleep she is dreaming of food, of soft steaming cakes of nsima, of gravy, chicken meat glistening in groundnut relish. Ahhhh… her mouth drops open. She pants slightly and a tendril of drool creeps down her chin.
The raindrop hits Luse right between the eyes, spilling in perfect symmetry down each side of her eye socket. She is instantly out of her sweet slumber and into her aching, eleven-year-old body.
She turns and yells the alarm into the darkness of the storm drain, ‘Rain! Rain! Rain!’
Her voice echoes off the curved walls and she is already running, kicking out at the soft shapes that are packed together like warm sacks, one on top of the other, in the utter blackness.
‘Your fucking mother is a baboon,’ hisses a sleepy voice in Bemba as she trips, plunging head first into a mass of writhing bodies.
‘Get up you idiots!’ Luse screams again. ‘Rain! Rain!’
As alarm begins to spread among the ragged piles, movement erupts all around her. Children shout and call to each other in Bemba, Tonga, Nyanja, Lingala, English. Luse pushes and pummels her way back through the melee. Over the racket, she can already hear the low roar of storm water from all over the city rushing like some filthy, furious beast down a thousand pipes towards this main drain. Her feet are now sloshing through foul sewage water gushing from the ground pipes. It is rising fast. She steps on something sharp with her bare foot and she yelps, nearly falling over, but there is no time to check the damage. She wades further in.
‘Joshua!’ she shouts. ‘Josh! Josh! Where are you?’
Luse doesn’t know exactly how many kids have been sleeping in this particular drain. She would guess a couple of lorry loads. She has passed the big knife-toting boys who keep to the front fifteen feet of pipe. This ensures their escape should there be a police raid, a fire… or a storm. The girls – at least the ones not being utilised by the big boys – the new kids, the sick kids and the smaller ones are stuck behind the bigger lads back here in the deep dark with the rats, cockroaches and snakes… and the occasional dead thing.
‘Joshie!’ Luse gasps, holding her sides. She can’t wade any further and is left looking into pitch black with the water rising to her shins. She screams into the darkness as the last of the small children splashes past. Something is rising inside her, a rage more terrible than anything the storm can imagine. If she has lost Joshua she will not be able to contain it.
Then a small sticky hand slips into hers.
‘Luse?’ says a small voice. ‘Luse, I’m here. I’m frightened.’
Luse bends down and sweeps Josh up into her arms, dragging his special smell of honey and firewood into her lungs. She turns, slipping and sliding in the water that now pours from the side gutters. He buries his head into her shoulder and Luse staggers back up the culvert towards the light of the night sky, the storm and the writhing, crackling five-thousand-foot-high filaments of lighting.
On The Frontline produced by Tanvir Bush
Director and cinematographer: Kasper Bisgaard
Production assistants: Dr Mike Bush, Francis Kabambo
Willie Mwale Film Foundations (2004)
Although not about Witch Girl directly, this film showcases an important aspect of the book’s context.
Amazon reviewer Carol gave Witch Girl five stars, saying “I know nothing about Zambia but I now feel I have been there. What a wonderful novel. The characters are so believable and mostly likeable, the “baddies” are very unlikeable but at the same time there is some sympathy shown for them and their mis-guided lives. The story is a cracking one and the lead character, Luse, is such a wonderful strong girl hero. I really could not put this down and regret that I have finished it. Adventure, romance, political awareness, cultural diversity, it is all there. Buy it, read it and then buy more copies to give as presents to everyone you know.”
Polly Loxton agrees: “Witch Girl! Eyes pricking and heart pounding, I have just finished and put it down. This short, tightly written story is utterly gripping. The author grew up in Zambia and the sharp, visual quality is testimony to her time as a documentary film maker there. The story arises from those experiences. Read it. Give it to your friends. It is the most original book I have read in many years.”
Amazon: 5 out of 5 stars by Amazon Customer on June 22, 2015
Format: Paperback, Verified Purchase
“This book drew me in from the first page and kept me on the edge of my seat. It painted a rich picture of the lives of of Luce and her brother in Zambia from their lives in the suburbs to poverty and the harsh reality of the street. It takes the reader on an amazing ride touching on religious fanaticism, child smuggling and even magic. The plight of these children made me want to reach through the pages and comfort them. Although fiction and not a memoir it reminded me of Angela’s Ashes and has to be one of the best books I’ve read in years.”
“A unique novel brilliantly told”JMB
Amazon: 5 out of 5 stars by JMB on 14 April 2015
Format: Paperback, Verified Purchase
“Tanvi weaves together a story based on the lives of a young girl and her brother that takes the reader onto the streets of Lusaka. She reveals how religion, witchcraft, the repercussions of HIV/Aids in a family, even institutionalised murder all combine to impact on both the young indigenous population and the work of visiting health workers.
Based on her own experiences and work as a documentary film maker, it is rich in the characters she creates and the landscape she describes. Tanvi’s novel brings a deeper knowledge and understanding of what may lie behind such disturbing images. Although not always easy to read, it is however a compelling portrayal that will stay with you.”
Willesden Herald: New Short Stories 10
Edited by Lane Ashfeldt and Stephen Moran, introduced by Lane Ashfeldt,
and featuring Tanvir Bush and others
Rictus by Tanvir Bush is one of the prizewinning stories included in this anthology of the best short stories of 2017. Inspired by Chekov’s ‘Ward Six’, this disturbing tale sees a Zambian doctor facing one of the most baffling cases of his career. Philosophy, superstition, science…which will win out? What is really going on out there in the dark?
The whole anthology is exciting: there are stories of abandonment, exhibitionism, spontaneous combustion, hysteria, people power, reincarnation, cuisine, race relations, orchidaceous tomfoolery and much more.
They will take you to hot beaches and deserted nighttime streets, to disputed urban spaces, to an overheated and under-resourced emergency ward, behind the scenes at a fancy restaurant, and to the chill vicinity of deserted lakes and pools. Three are set in America, two in Africa, one each in Wales, Scotland, Ireland, London and darkest Sussex.